Been listening to a lot of dashboard confessional right now....this would be the song of the day....
"I'm missing your bed, I never sleep. Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak. And this bottle of beast is taking me home. I'm cuddling close to blankets and sheets. You're not alone and you're not discrete. You make sure i know who's taking you home. I'm reading your note over again. There's not a word that i comprehend, except when you signed it "I will love you always and forever." As for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs and sit alone and wonder how you're making out. But as for me, I wish that I was anywhere, with anyone, making out. I'm missing your laugh. How did it break? And when did your eyes begin to look fake? I hope you're as happy as you're pretending. I'm cuddling close to blankets and sheets. And I am alone in my defeat. I wish I knew you were safely at home. I'm missing your bed. I never sleep. Avoiding the spots where we'd have to sleep. And this bottle of beast is taking me home. Well and as for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs and sit alone and wonder how you're making out. And as for me, I wish that I was anywhere, with anyone, making out. Your hair, it's everywhere. Screaming infidelities, taking its wear. your hair, it's everywhere. Screaming infidelities, taking its wear. your hair, it's everywhere. Screaming infidelities, taking its wear. your hair, it's everywhere. Screaming infidelities, taking its wear"
He sent me an email last night saying that we need time to sort things out and that he cares about me still. He said that when we are both ready then we can try to be friends and then go from there. It gives me optimism.
So the lonely hearts club is going out Saturday night to the club. It will be me, A1, who got dumped three months ago and is still reeling, and A2 who got dumped 2 weeks ago and just sits at home and cries all the time now. Is there something in the air? Its like the freaking plague. And all three of us---it was exactly the same: LTRs where we are just all of the sudden thrown into singledom again. We are all in our mid twenties, attractive, professional women and we just have to stick together and support each other in our time of grief. It will be good to get out of the house.