His last email to me after I emailed him spilling every thought, every emotion since the day he left: " I'm still sorting through a lot of feelings about our relationship, about the way things ended. It's going to take me a while. A long while. It's nice that you're thinking about things but it's still so soon after our break up that what your thinking now will probably change several times in the coming months. I don't know what else to say other than that. We're not getting back tog...

Been listening to a lot of dashboard confessional right now....this would be the song of the day.... "I'm missing your bed, I never sleep. Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak. And this bottle of beast is taking me home. I'm cuddling close to blankets and sheets. You're not alone and you're not discrete. You make sure i know who's taking you home. I'm reading your note over again. There's not a word that i comprehend, except when you signed it "I will love you always and forev...

It started in a dream...I was lying in a hospital bed, paralyzed from being hit by a car. There he was, hovering over me telling me to wiggle my toes, damnit. It was a weird dream, I told him about it, we laughed about it, and pretty much shrugged it off. Then, while he is dumping me for no clear reason on my front porch with all of my "left behind" possessions in a small plastic bag, he says "wiggle your toes, damn it". My dreams become my worst nightmares. April 9th--"good" friday. H...